Thursday, January 26, 2012

Thank God its Thursday!

When seeing this title the first thing going through your mind is why the hell doesnt it read thank god its friday. Well curious readers, Thursday is like my friday. I dont have class on Friday so I technically have a three day weekend. Its awesome. Today I went to the doctor. Nothing of major importance happend there. When I got back to school I started on my homework and then went to the cafe for a family dinner with my roomies. It was nice. I have great roommates because they are so helpful to me. Since my campus is not exactly wheelchair friendly as I probably mentioned in several other posts, I need to take the longest possible route to get to the dining hall. Instead of taking the short route, my roomies took the long route with me. I really appreciate it because it is not too fun being outside in the cold connecticut weather longer than you have to. I am so glad that its the weekend. I have a lot of makeup work to do as well as homework. I also hope I can have sometime to just unwind. The week can get so stressful.

Thursday, January 19, 2012


I have returned to school after my winter break. My spirits are quite down at the moment but Ill try my hardest not to keep them that way. Overall I am just so sick of being sick. I want to be able to just live my life pain free. No more meds, no more medical equiptment. I dont know how much more of this I can go through. Its really frustrating. I really hope that there is something out there that will help. There has to be because the one thing I know for sure is I will not spend the rest of my life like this. There are too many things I need to do with my life. I just really want to get better.

Thursday, January 12, 2012

Pain sucks

Last night was not fun at all. It was a perfect storm for misery. No pun intended. My pain meds were low, I worked hard in physical therapy, and it was raining out. For those lymies reading this, you could easily imagine the agony this situation caused me. It was awful. Although this pain I was feeling sucked a lot,it came now where near the pain I feel 24/7 in my head. But, the suckiest part is, I had this going on at the same time as my headache from hell. Lucky for me, I have an extremely dedicated mom for a caregiver. She held me through the pain until the early am hours. Eventually, I fell asleep from exhaustion. It was definitely not a fun night.

Monday, January 9, 2012

Todays Post January 09 2012

This week has been a tough one for me because I have been feeling a bit under the weather. Today I summoned up the strength to go to physical therapy. Dispite not feeling so great I think it went quite well. What sucks though is now I am feeling under the weather and sore.Meh. I know it is worth it because it brings me closer to my goal of getting better. I dont  know what it is but lately I have been feeling more cranky than usual. I believe I am just fed up with everything. I am tired of being in pain, tired of having to put a shit load of effort into the simplest of tasks. Its mentally and physically exhausting! All I want is to get better already. I miss my old life where I was able to stand up and go where I pleased. Not like now where I need to take 10 years to stand up and even longer to get where I am going. Im nineTEEN not nineTY. The problems I am dealing with now seem more fit for someone decades older.

Tuesday, January 3, 2012


Happy New Years Everyone! I hope its a happy and healthy one. The first real thing I did this 2012 is begin physical therapy. I am glad because one of my new years resolutions is to get better and part of getting better is walking again. I will admit the actual therapy part is not fun at all because it causes be a lot of discomfort. Especially when the therapist pushes your boundaries which just so happens to be 90 percent of the time. I guess the saying no pain no gain applies here. Lucky for me I have a great physical therapist who I work well with. Although its unlikely, I hope I can get my motor wheelchair before going back to college on the 18th. Its starting to get really cold out and that makes it suck 100 times more to get around. Ugh but theres not much I can do about it.