I have returned to school after my winter break. My spirits are quite down at the moment but Ill try my hardest not to keep them that way. Overall I am just so sick of being sick. I want to be able to just live my life pain free. No more meds, no more medical equiptment. I dont know how much more of this I can go through. Its really frustrating. I really hope that there is something out there that will help. There has to be because the one thing I know for sure is I will not spend the rest of my life like this. There are too many things I need to do with my life. I just really want to get better.