frustrated

its day 13 of no swallowing and i can not begin to voice the amount of frustration i feel. 13 days of no swallowing means 13 days of no eating. the doctors say encouraging me to eat could be helpful. thats all fine  and dandy but i think my starving stomach has the encouragement under control. i am genuinly worried about loosing too much weight. i reallly  hope they find some way to get food into me.